Thursday, July 15, 2010

Pondering My Blessings...

Wow! There has been sooo much going on since the last time I posted anything. Life seems to just run full speed ahead and there's nothing I can do to slow anything down or change anything. Quite honestly, I feel like it's just been crazy and I'm tired and out of breath and just wanting to slow down and take a breather. In just the last couple years I have had 2 surgeries, lost a couple close friends, quit my job that I thought I never wanted to quit, had 2 precious new grandkids born, had my wonderful mother-in-law move in with us with stage 4 lung cancer, then go home to be with Jesus not long after we were blessed with her being in our home, and right on the heels of that, my youngest daughter losing her baby, and my oldest daughter and her 3 boys move in with us while she was going through a divorce. Maybe that doesn't seem like a lot to some who I know are going through more than me, but that's A LOT of up and down emotional times for me. I know God has been with us/me through it all, the good and the bad, and that He is in control, and I am so glad, although, I have to be quite honest and admit that I haven't always acted like I was trusting Him in all this. As tired and worn out emotionally as I feel, I wouldn't trade most of it (okay, any of it!) for anything. I'm thankful for the most wonderful grandkids and for the precious time with my mother-in-law. I wouldn't trade her stories and her sense of humor and any of the time with her for anything. I don't understand about the baby but it's not up to me to understand everything...just to trust Him. I know that nothing touches my life that hasn't been filtered through the loving hands of my loving Father. I thank Him for being in control, for the time spent with the special people in my life, for the most wonderful husband to share it all with, and for knowing that God has a purpose for everything. I pray that I have grown through all this and will come out closer to Him and more like Him. I'm thankful that, through my attitudes, He hasn't given up on me. Does that mean that I'm handling things perfect and not all emotional still? I'd sure like to say I have it all together and am doing it the right way every time but I'm not. I'm a slow learner sometimes. I'm so thankful, though, for His amazing mercy and His grace and that His mercies are new every morning and great is His faithfulness. I need that fresh start every day. Thank You, God, for You! I love You, LORD!
P.S. Thank You, LORD, for the precious new grandbaby, that You're blessing our lives with! I can't wait to meet this new little one in February! Yay!